Momma, I Want to Sing...Write Songs

There isn't much more that I can say, nor do
Apparently
this is what it's gon' be
And for once, I'm just going to let the process happen
as though I panned it
as if I understand it
For once able to recognize that God had his hands on the situation
and I simply needed to let go of my notions of control
what I got
was a calming of the soul
and answers to questions long ago asked i had passed off as not meant to know
this exercise wasn't easy
but it wasn't difficult either

So, yet another entry. Nothing I really feel like speaking on in particular. Life is OK, right now. I guess I should be stressed now, but I'm on auto-pilot--somebody else is flying right now, and I'm just trying to enjoy the flight. I don't know if I have revealed one of my many epiphanies, but a big one is that I want to professionally write songs. It's been a weird circle, too. I think I wrote my first love song before I ever drew my first comic. Which is weird, because I always remember art being my first (artistic) passion. But no--I didn't get into drawing comics until like the 4th grade. Clearly wrote a love song when I was 8 or 9.

For years, I'd get song ideas, and not write them down because I didn't sing--which is a story in itself. I could hold a note...wasn't great as a kid, but I wasn't bad. I probably would be decent if I stuck with it. Everything changed when I sung Earth Angel to my girlfriend Chi Chi (yeah, that was her name) in the 4th grade in the back of the school bus. Her response: You sound good, but you sound like a girl. Crushed. I spent years after that trying to sing in baritone. *sigh*

So, I skipped many a songwriting opportunity because I didn't sing, so why write down a song. Besides, I had poetry, and I kinda rhymed for kicks, so...yeah. Anyway, after I hit a major drought with my poetry, I had to find a way to express myself, and I couldn't force my poetry (I almost never like the end result). I didn't realize that I started writing songs almost instinctively to fill the void. The process was very similar to writing poetry, so it felt natural. So one day I look up, and realize that my non-songwriting @$$ has about 70+ songs in the can--a good amount of them finished. Some, some were really good. And it hit me--this could be my way to get free. My way to enable myself to do all of the things I wanna do. Yeah, I'll write songs.

So, that's where I am right now. I still have a long road, and I am just getting started...but that's the first place I need to visit. From there, scripts and graphic novels should be logistically and financially easier to tackle. On top of all that, it'll give me the unique opportunity to work with other talented individuals. So yeah, that's what's on the agenda--finally, some much needed direction. Oh yeah, The Terminal is on sale now, that's my 4th book. Hit up the store @ leethepoet.com for more info. It's a good read, real talk.