Ever have something consume you, but not in a good way? I mean, I have some really dope things going on in my life right now, and I know I'm blessed, but...there are some things that are starting to take shape that are really bothering me. So much so, I don't want to talk about it, cause talking about it makes it real, and making it real means I have to deal with it...dealing with it means possible alienation from some of those I love. Right is right, man...and there is some foul shit going down right now. So frustrated by this, yet I'm trying not to think about it...but, that's all I can think about.
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I feel like leaving work right now and squandering a c- note on some music and DVD's and drowning myself in them. Music is some wonderful shit, man...Don't know if Third Eye Blind is the best choice of music right now, but it's helping to keep the edge off. I was sooooo agitated last night. Couldn't even muster the energy to go to Java last night...didn't want to feel obligated to put on a smile, y'know? Gran Turismo: A-Spec was about to have me break my PS2 last night...that's how much this is bothering me. But, seeing as tho' (for once), I can't elaborate on what 'this" actually is...I think I'll just cut this journal entry right here. (sigh)
Wow...just...wow.