Baby Steps

I finally got out and did some cardio yesterday, man. Felt good, too. It was a scary experience in a way because I had some bad experiences over the last year and a half or so with cardio workouts…last time I played ball I almost blacked out on the court. I couldn’t even drive afterwards, well, I didn’t feel comfortable enough to drive. Been psyching myself up to run for I don’t know how long. Had Lynn come with me to keep me company. Hmph, I’ve been out of shape for the past eight months probably; I’ve never been out of shape in my life. My goal was to walk a quarter, run a half, and walk a quarter. A mile is a good workout, but not too lofty a goal. After running my quarter, I wanted to walk the rest of the way, more fear than anything. You go to the emergency room twice for asthma like symptoms and the doctors don’t tell you that you have asthma, that shit can shake you; especially if you’re doing something like driving and the shit happens. I stuck to my goal, tho. I ran the other quarter without once stopping.
I could have run more, but I don’t want to overdo it as I often do. I have the mutant ability to push myself well past my limits, but I often pay for that later. Didn’t want to do that yesterday. Stick to the mile…get back out there in a couple of days and do it again. Eventually I’ll get a stopwatch… Ah man, I felt good running once I got close to doing my little half mile. I seriously need to work on my lower back strengthening because that shit is hurtin’ like hell right now, tho’. While I was running, there were some dudes playing soccer at greene stadium…I remember when I was able to just do shit like that without any real issues of scheduling and what not. I miss that. Some of the women who were standing to the side were looking at me, so I didn’t want to look all soft either. There goes that man- go again. Nothin’ like the male ego, ya’ll. That’s the type of shit that would have me about to black out on a basketball court instead of calling for a sub.
“Naw Lee, you can make until the end of the game. It’s already 12- 10”. Man, I was seeing color flashes and everything that day… My silly ass overheated somehow. I feel good now, tho, and that’s what matters. Never liked running for the sake of running, but I think this will be good for me. Just have to keep setting realistic goals and sticking to them.